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In search of light

I wake up every morning,
Searching for some light,
That frees me from the darkness,
That was filled in my heart...

...Darkness that found its way
When I first flew over the oceans leaving my mother land far away
Searching for light illuminating my life
...Darkness that was growing strong every moment
Away so long & that when I knew, she left me
It has filled up all, in & around me

...I forgot the meaning of happiness, so as my smile
...& I lost my love, so as my life
...Also, the brightest of the days, Failed to fill some light,
& the longest of the days, Failed to stay for a moment

...Now, the heart is searching for darkness
To hide the pain in the eyes, & the waters flowing from them,
The heart's searching for darkness Also during the days, only to find some light,
That can illuminate my life...

Days are followed by nights, & nights are followed by days,
Saying neither accompanies alone till the end,
Explaining the hearts filled with darkness,
Not to search for an end

...An end, that is sure for all,
But time & place known for none
...An end, that is sure for all,
Yet, unpredictive of now or when? & I wake up every morning,
Searching for the light that brings me life, & makes me feel alive!!!

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