In search of light

I wake up every morning,
Searching for some light,
That frees me from the darkness,
That was filled in my heart...

...Darkness that found its way
When I first flew over the oceans leaving my mother land far away
Searching for light illuminating my life
...Darkness that was growing strong every moment
Away so long & that when I knew, she left me
It has filled up all, in & around me

...I forgot the meaning of happiness, so as my smile
...& I lost my love, so as my life
...Also, the brightest of the days, Failed to fill some light,
& the longest of the days, Failed to stay for a moment

...Now, the heart is searching for darkness
To hide the pain in the eyes, & the waters flowing from them,
The heart's searching for darkness Also during the days, only to find some light,
That can illuminate my life...

Days are followed by nights, & nights are followed by days,
Saying neither accompanies alone till the end,
Explaining the hearts filled with darkness,
Not to search for an end

...An end, that is sure for all,
But time & place known for none
...An end, that is sure for all,
Yet, unpredictive of now or when? & I wake up every morning,
Searching for the light that brings me life, & makes me feel alive!!!

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Ontarini chesavaemae cheliya...?

Ninne nimpukunna naa kannullo, Neerae nimpavaemae cheliya... Neetho sagina swasalanae, Ontari chesavemae cheliya... Tolichupu lonae kannula nindi, Kalalalo kuda Neevae nilichi... Ilanae kalaga malachavaemi, Kalalae kallani kada terchavemi? Veluguku cheekati thodani vinna, Velugula venakala cheekati kanna... Naalo veluguvu neevai nilichi, Cheekati cheralo vadilavaemi? Neekai nilichina nalo swasa ni, Neetho nadiche naalo aasa ni, Naalo needaina naa manasu ni, Ontarini chesavamae cheliya? Ninne nimpukunna naa kannullo, Neerae nimpavaemae cheliya? Neetho sagina swasalanae, Ontari chesavemae cheliya?

Call me...

Call me if you remember the love in my eyes, oh my love... call me if you remember the warmth in my breath, oh my love... don't you remember that moment, when I had first expressed my love... don't you remember the feel in me, every time when you were in front of me... don't you remember all those moments, that we had spent together... don't you remember all those times when, I was sleeping in your laps... call me if you remember, the pain in my eyes when going apart... call me if you remember, the tingle in my voice, when you last spoke to me...

Evenings of Frustration!

Sitting in the room, with a system on the lap... unlocking every time it goes standby... thinking of doing something, but don't know, what? Opening the browse & staring at it... checking the mail box again n again, knowing that a new mail makes my hand-held device ring... thinking of what to do, my fingers stay on the keys, & eyes stare at the screen... feeling like doing something, that produces some adrenalin... answer for which being unknown, I stare at the screen, unlock it once again... feeling like walking on a road, though not alone, but surrounded by complete loneliness & immense darkness... I stare at the screen unlocking it once again... feel like writing a poem, describing the state-of-my-mind... feel like making a film, depicting the encounters within me... but, Iam neither a poet, rhyming my feeling... nor Iam an actor, portraying emotions of manipulation... & one more dawn of frustration turns into, the darkness of night, in a matter-of-c...

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